A place to call home

Under the cloak of night
The promise of light at dawn awaits
So patiently
Yet seems so far away
When the heart feels wary

Which way to choose
When all lead (to) elsewhere
Whilst our final destination remains the same?

What you and I have touched upon
Scares the hell out of me
For fear of losing it already
Being purged as I am, as never before
Sifting through the debris of years gone by

But what’s meant to be will be
And thus I surrender, once more
Cutting away at the cancer of my past
Hoping it is not too late
For proper healing, new foundations

For Lo and behold!
My rock bottom yields gold at your command,
Springs of fresh water running with each kiss
You stir desire dripping from my hips,
Hide star-crossed poetry underneath your fingertips!

Oh, do I love you my love
Do I love you..!
I hold you closer to my heart
With every breath I take
Every thrust of yours
You pierce my all
For the better

I am learning all over again
What it means to have a heart, if at all
And how I am to apply it, feel it
Holding the one gifted to me as my own
Being so honest and trustworthy

It means un-inking those parts of me
That I wanted etched upon my skin
Thinking they held truth forever
That I needed to remind myself
Lest I ever forget
For I did

Now I don’t nee them anymorw

But you, you
Haven’t you always been a part of me,
Hidden in the depths of my anguish and despair?
The surprise I did not see coming
The blessing in disguise
The light at the end of that wretched, wretched tunnel

To hell with the devil!
This is a house of Love
I am afraid no more
I will deal with my own demons
They just disappear..

With you I dare to address my many wounds
Concealed in layers of lies and illusion
Unwrap me, beloved, pour your honey over me
You will be the witness of my growth
Of the restoration of my faith
Of the rebuilding of my strength
Holy land beneath your feet
A place to call home
At last.