Am I finally found / conceived of in your soul?
Or am I lost once more / on the vast shore of my longing?
Tomorrow I will start anew / unfold a different me
For Iâ€™m leaving where Iâ€™m at -right now
I so wished to be known that I gave myself away
Unable to withdrawn from the grace between our fences
But itâ€™s tearing me to pieces to be down upon my knees
How I needed to be stronger, to withstand your open arms!
Itâ€™s not your fault that I gave in; I should thank you for your shelter
And the many, many nights you enabled me to write
I will have to break away from this devastating pattern
And guard the fading lines that used to mark my borders;
This physical attachment alienates my truth
I want to face this world on my own two stable feet
And walk my way through life, without fearing whatâ€™s behind me
-I never meant to torn remaining fragments of your heart..
I’d merely hoped to see you rest / in the warmth of who I was
And heal your broken heart / beyond it’s plain deceit